Thursday, September 30, 2010

I just need to rant my feelings, and no i do not feel like talking to someone about it, because talking to people just complicate matters even more.

Therefore, blog shall be my confidante for now.

So ok, now where do I go next. What am I doing? I don't even know.

All i know it's that, I am having difficulty drawing the line between past and present. I feel myself living in the past when suddenly it hits me, hey, you're no longer who you were, and things aren't the same anymore.

But I miss that familiarity, somehow. I know I shouldn't, but I've been missing it for 3 years. It's weird. How things always play out to be not like how you'd think it would be.

Anyway, all I can say is, I shall leave this up to God, because right now I am in absolutely no capacity to decide on my next course of action. I am in a sea of confusion, a really dark murky sea.

Oh God please tell me what to do now?