Monday, February 27, 2006
... off to bed at night. i can't sleep, neither can he. comes over to check if im awake. i am. we take a stroll on the deck, staying till the sun rises and rushing back just before everyone wakes...
-pouts- its so unfair. hmpf. heh. gosh i sound like some spoilt kid. hmm..lately i've been thinking of sth entirely impossible. nevertheless it's kinda nice to daydream about it and well, sadly speaking fantasize. AH!
life has been monotonous as usual. stuff with jon, i guess i could say we are good. yups. sweet one he is. =)
I WANNA GO! for.. but somehow i know it'll never happen. NEVER IN MY LIFE. God has been too nice to me already. I dun deserve anymore. Selfish me. hmpf. Haha.
anyway, watched Emily Rose. It isn't really scary. There is a slight fear i have at night, but ironically the fear is not of being possessed or anything. the fear is of whether that ring of god's protection can overpower other external forces.
well i had always imagined gods protection as this big circle around me, and that nothing would be able to enter to harm me. but the show has kinda made me query if gods powers can ever be overpowered. well it sure did seem that way in the show, cos im sure Father Richard moore had a very big circle of protection, and yet he was vulnerable to the demons' attacks. contradicting. oh wells whatever. stupid show. my faith is still kept strong.haha. but i think it was quite cool. hee. to think it's based on a true life story. looking forward to the Da Vinci Code. made into a movie. hee. Dan Brown. i love his books.
yesterday, i finally saw the importance of a choir with cheerful faces. mass felt so dead when the hossana and all the mass proper songs were sung. reason, the sunday choir was expressionless and kinda dead. only yest did i see how important the choir was to inspire the congregation.now i see why mel has been so persistant on us memorising the lyrics and looking at the congregation, and not forgetting a smile on our faces. it really works. did not go for choir last week, due to several reasons. then again im thinking, who gives a shit bout all that. y should i not go cos of some people.(well just 4 pple) weirdly darren thinks i have a problem with noel and greg or sth. no no no. its nth to do with them at all. anyway. im gonna continue playing for mass and contribute, for god, and not for anyone else. with that said, i must get all the songs for lenten vigil and learn all of them properly. have not been attending pracs. AHHH!
Posted by Brendy at 4:10 PM