Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Am i making the right choice really? Am i making the right choice to stay here, to do something i don't wanna do just to please people. YET AGAIN. i realised that these 17 yrs of my life have just been living up to other people's expectations. Im expected to this and that this and that this and that. ITS SICK. sometimes i wonder if it'd all be better if i went away. now im starting to regret staying in singapore. sigh. i hate this place totally. education system here. the people. the place. DISGUSTING. and now, even the place or rather the people. the group that used to make things all better just make it worse for me now. i no longer enjoy the times im there with them just like how i used to look forward to it. it was something i so looked forward to at the end of each week. now its like, should i go? will it be nice? or will it suck like last week. everything's so different, the people, the atmosphere. i have no idea why. perhaps its just cos of certain people. sigh. anyway, god, i'll leave everything up to you. after all i know everything happens for a purpose. and i realised i have absolutel nth to look forward to. sch reopening? absolutely not. im starting to get scared of TJ. after looking at how my frens are coping in there. seems quite bad. sigh. anyway..i might not even get posted there??? maybe the principal wouldnt like my name or sth. HEE. aye aye aye.
there's this place i've taken an exceptional liking for. and that's the esplanade library. it's just soooooo different from the rest of singapore. everything and maybe most people there are kinda more sophisticated. more class and. it's just such a great environment to be alone, to study or whatsoever. unlike other libraries, it doesnt have noisy irritating kids runnig around playing catching or whatever. COS THERE AINT A KIDS SECTION! i think. heh. so yes. im in love with esplanade, and its library. its, unlike typical singapore. =)
Posted by Brendy at 1:23 PM